So, 2013 has easily been one of the most stressful years I’ve had as far as things go. I had been doing so well with everything, and the stress that took over caused me to lose a lot of my motivation and gain back a ton of the weight that I’d lost in the past couple years.
After coming back from Katsucon in February, my dog was walking funny, so we took him to the vet. A couple days later, we found out that he was paralyzed in his back region. His legs, tail, bladder, and whole back end had lost all function. The vet at the emergency animal hospital gave me the bad news that he’d lost all feeling and that it would potentially be a good idea for me to get him put down. To hear that about my 2 year old dog was really hard to cope with. We ended up telling her we didn’t want to get him put down and see what he was capable of on his own. My vet suggested a cold laser method of treatment for him that could help alleviate some of the pain he was experiencing. We decided to go with that method, and were very shocked at the results. 10 months later, you can barely tell anything was wrong with him. He walks on his own, can wag his tail again, can use the bathroom on his own, and runs around like a damn fool. His treatment was very expensive though, and put a pretty heavy burden on us financially. I got some donations from the community and friends to help with a portion of things, which was awesome.
A week after his treatment started, my car broke down, and required a 900 dollar repair.
And then my fiancé lost his job a couple months later, and I was forced to pull some of my retirement fund out in order to keep up on some of the bills, but we’re still immensely far behind. It took him about 4 months to find another job, so I was stuck trying to keep us above water with my income alone.
And then my mom had issues with her diabetic retinopathy. A blood vessel burst in her eye, which took away a good chunk of her vision. She had to get surgery on it, and a couple months after that, the scar tissue caused her to develop a retinal detachment in her eye, which required more surgery.
Needless to say, my stress levels have been at an all time high this year, so I gained a lot of the weight I’d lost back. I’m back up to a staggering 278 pounds, which kills me after all of my hard work that I’d done for the past couple years. I was all the way down to 206 at one point, and at the beginning of the year, I was around 215.
I have plans to get back into seriously cosplaying in 2014, so I want to get back into shape in order to look good in what I’m planning. I’ve developed quite an affinity for League of Legends in the past 6 months, and I want to cosplay Leona in her Iron Solari skin. With my current weight, that’s not going to go over too well, so I need to get started soon. I was hoping to be able to debut this at Katsucon 2014, which gives me about 2 months to really start kicking my ass into gear.
I figure what better way to start things off on a new year of my life than to start getting back into the shape I was in before, and work harder at it than ever before. I know I can do it. I’ve showed myself that in the past. Just losing that motivation really knocked me for a loop.