It begins again. After doing so well the first time around, and getting back up to this……
It’s time to show myself that I can attain my goals, and get back to the weight I was at a couple years ago. Back then, I started at 296, and got down to 206 before various things happened that made me lose my drive, and I started gained weight back again. Fast forward to today, where I’m now sitting at 281.6. A mere 15 pounds shy of what I was at when I first started. I never want to get back up to my starting weight, so I need to get back in shape again.
Even before, I didn’t post up before shots of myself, and when I posted them after all was said and done, I was not nearly as exposed as this image shows. Looking at this image disgusts me. I’m able to see all the flaws that came back from two years of hard work.
My knees are hurting again, and I’m constantly finding myself exhausted. I have cosplays I want to do, and I can’t do many of them with this body. Even when I’m in Rainbow Dash and see photos of myself, I cringe at just how bad I look inside.
I won’t accomplish this in a day, a week, a month, or even a year. I will fail. I will fall off the wagon. But I’ll be damned if I let it get as bad as I let things. I have so many pairs of jeans that used to fit me, and I’m getting back into those fuckers. I loved my size 11 skinny jeans.
I need pushed. This is the beginning of what will be a new me.
Feb 24, 2014-281.6